Thursday, October 25, 2007;
ewan ko kung bakit pero ang saya. wee..
so natuloy pa rin ang birthday celebration ni kamille last night [happy birthday ulit!]. nagpanic pa ako kasi sabi niya last week november na kaya di ko pa napagawa yung gift ko sa kanya. nagpanic pa ako kahapon magpagawa ng gift ko. ang taray pa nung guy sa kameraworld megamall. kill him. at ang hirap isama ni biboy sa mall ah. may bribe pa. hehe..
naniniwala na ako na 92% of what we worry about never happen and the remaining 8% is usually manageable. super parang ayaw ko na kasi sumama kahapon. pano naman, si lao hindi na sumama. pati si roemel. 5 lang kami: kamille, ako, yayi, ralph, ph. ayun, grabe feeling ko op-ness ang magiging drama ko. well, buti na lang hindi. hehe..
ang haba nung story bago nila ako nasundo pero wag na yun. sa kanila kayo magpa-kwento.. haha..
ang late na namin dumating sa zirkoh greenhills. whoo.. sa side ng stage tuloy kami nakaupo. malapit na ako ma-stiff neck kaya nung latter part, nakipagpalit na ako ng seat kay ph. wahaha.. close? hehe.. nahiya nga ako sa kanya eh.. ang stupid ko kasi, nung kumakain ako ng chicken lollipop nabitawan ko, siya pa pumulot. kahiya naman.. haha.. pero ok lang. grabe yung mga yun, ang daming food. ang daming drinks.. haha.. enjoy naman. kulit talaga pag yung mga bading. super fun! hehe.. si yayi ang kulit! hehe.. ang saya..
mga 2:30 na kami umalis dun. tapos may mga taxi naman sa labas kaya di kami nahirapan. ito pala nakakaloka. may 2 batang nagtitinda ng sampaguita sa labas. well, actually camia pala yun. tinanong nila kam kung anong flower yunat pina-spell pa. kaloka, nauuna daw ang 'a' sa 'i' sa camia. kinorek [what a spelling!] ko na, hindi daw. tama daw sila. ok fine! haha.. section ko kaya yun nung grade six.
dapat punta pa kaming starbucks pero closed na yung sa shaw eh. asa naman kasi kaming 24 hours yun. hehe.. eh yun lang malapit kaya umuwi lang kami. ang bait nung manong taxi driver. ewan ko, ang bait eh. haha.. nagstop kami sa tapat nung starbucks tapos nag-isip ng next na pupuntahan. nag-moral support naman siya. haha.. parang tumahimik kaming lahat, pati si manong at sabay-sabay kaming huminga.. haha.. sa 7-11 na lang kami pumunta. yung malapit dito sa house. bumili na lang kaming food.
tapos pag dating dito sa bahay, wala. haha.. nood tv. naligo si ralph. tapos nag-ayos silang gamit. si ph naglabas ng camera kaya medyo nagpicture-picture kami. tapos sabi ko word factory kami. ayun. nag-word factory kami. nakakaloka yung mga yun, career mode talaga. muntik na ako mag-nose bleed. haha.. si yayi pala hindi kasali. kumakain lang siyang ice cream. tapos after some time napagod na siya manood sa amin at natulog na lang. hehe.. naka-ilang round din kami. hanggang 5. tapos maliligo na daw si kamille kaya nagstop na kami at naisip na nila matulog. haha.. 5:15 na nun kaya nagreready na rin si mariel for school. pinaakyat na lang kami ni mommy sa kwarto. buti nagising si yayi, muntik na siya buhatin nila ph. hehe..
so yun. umalis na si kam ng 6:00 at kaming apat ay natulog hanggang 8:00. whoo.. nagpagising pa si ralph. buti nagising ako sa alarm ko. tapos ginising ko na siya. haru, dun siya sa second floor nung double bed nila bibs kasi si ph sa baba. nahirapan akong abutin siya dun ah. tapos natulog ako ulit. haha.. kaya lang ginising na rin niya ako. pati si yayi at ph. at nagbreakfast na kami sabay-sabay. gising na si dad nun kaya sabi ko mag-good morning sila. hehe.. ayun. naligo si yayi tapos si ph tapos kumain na. tapos nagbihis si ralph tapos umalis na sila. whoo..
ewan ko kung bakit pero ang saya. hehe.. siguro dahil masaya lang talaga.. hehe.. may deeper eh.. pero i don't want to share to the world.. salamat sa kanya.. sa kanila.. i feel better.. at wait! yung math ko.. yey! may pag-asa pa.. go!
special mention: yayi at ph
salamat.. hehe.. di naman tayo masyadong close pero ang saya eh.. salamat.. close na tayo.. hehe.. ;p
hai.. GOD IS SO GOOD talaga. i feel better na. everything's gonna be fine. come on, guys. pray with me. :)
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007;
a forwarded text message from karen says:
what's complicated and why does it hurt? it's when you don't know where you stand in a person's life; it's when you're hanging in dead air and knowing you can be thrown off anytime. it's when you're like more than friends but not really, and it's like you're lovers when it's really otherwise. darn it. sometimes you would want to wish to never have met the person at all but at the back of your mind, you're thankful u have.. :(
sheesh. 'darn it' is right. waahh.. si neil naman, pinarinig sa akin yung 'king of wishful thinking'. what the.. hehe.. alam talaga ng friends ko kung pano ako madedepress. haha, joke lang! if you want to hear the song, nasa multiply ko. so.. super drama mode tuloy. slight lang naman. sembreak na noh. i deserve to be happy. :)
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Monday, October 15, 2007;
i'm alive again. hehe.. i was blog-hopping kanina when i remembered all my drama right now. kaya ito, feel ko na magpost.
one time pumunta ako sa powerbooks mag-isa. friday yata yun and wala akong gagawin after class. so solo flight, pumunta akong megamall. tapos yung binasa kong book, yung 'almost married'. alam niyo ba yun? madrama siya.. hehe.. di nga nakatulong sa depression ko pero ok lang. feel ko naman magdrama that time eh. yung first part na lang yung share ko. ang drama kasi, yung bidang girl, she has her period. tapos she was watching this video of, (i think, if i remeber it right) donita rose's wedding her friend recorded for her. and she was crying while watching it for the nth time. wala lang. sabi niya when her period comes, she always feels like watching that video again. she has a boyfriend naman pero frustrated yata siya kasi he never mentioned getting married. eh invited pa naman sila sa meet-the-parents effect party nung younger sister nung boyfriend niya. so lalo siyang na-depress. ay, june pala nun. na-getz niyo ba? basta ang reasons for all her drama was that it was june(time for weddings and all), she was 28 na and has no plans of getting married yet, she has her period.. yun. ganun na ba drama pag tumatanda na? hala.. single friends, pano na?! hehe.. ang gulo ko talaga magkwento ever.
naalala ko tuloy yung sabi ni yani na sabi daw ni abbey.. 'okay lang naman kasi maging single.. pero kasi.. ilang taon na tayong single!!'.. yun yun eh. haha..
so ito na ang real drama ko.
similar dun sa girl dun sa book. i have my period pero no boyfriend. haha.. i mean, wala pero meron na ewan.. getz niyo? wala lang. i'm craving. sana kasama ko siya right now and all.. sana bumalik na sa normal lahat.. hai.. how i wish..
lapit na oct 26.. yung favorite kong date namin sa atc.. waahh.. nakakalungkot naman.. di na mauulit yun.. hai.. gulo-gulo ko..
whoo.. papasok pa ako bukas para sa final presentation namin sa french. good luck naman. sana ma-pronounce ko nang tama yung lines ko. go! career mode.. hehe..
tulog na ako.. gabi na.. hehe..
next time na lang siguro ang updates. drama muna for now.. :(
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Thursday, September 20, 2007;
'the stupid things we do for love' nga naman oh.. hai..
wait.. bago yun, i would just like to congratulate myself for passing my philo and kas midterms.. yey me! hehe.. di ko expected yun ah.. ang saya.. hehe.. kaso.. wala pa ring improvement sa math.. konting effort pa.. hehe..
so ito na.. whoo.. nag-end yung class ko a little before 4:00.. nag-super toki na naman kami ni leahli pabalik ng kalay[parang taga-dun din ako noh? ;p].. mga ten years na naman yun.. hehe.. tapos before math kasi sa tapat ng fc kami sumakay kasama si carlo.. kaya nakita namin yung food stalls sa tapat ng yakal.. kaya pag balik namin, ayun.. dun kami naghanap ng kakainin.. nakasalubong pa nga namin ni leahli si 'manny pacquiao' at super kinilig naman siya.. hehe.. ayun.. bumili ako ng fries sa ny tapos si leahli pizza.. tapos sabi ni leahli wag na daw kami dun bumili ng shake kasi mahal.. so ayun.. from tapat ng yakal lumakad pa kami papuntang lutong bahay para bumili ng shake.. tapos yun.. umupo na kami sa stairs ng kalay.. nagstart na kami kumain pero hinihintay pa talaga dapat namin si yani.. poverty nga yun eh.. walang contribution.. hehe.. pero ok lang kasi host naman siya ng chocolate party namin nung monday.. hehe.. ang tagal namin.. super kwentuhan.. yun nga ba?! hehe..
alam ko namang sabi nung sub-conscious ko hinihintay ko siya eh.. para magkita naman kami.. kaso.. ayun.. ayaw ni destiny.. hehe.. pumunta pa nga kami ni yani sa sc pero wala.. di namin siya nakita..
ang late ko na tuloy umuwi.. 6 na.. ang dami na tuloy tao sa mrt.. di na tuloy ako nakaupo.. all because.. hai.. 2 hours din yun ah..
at hindi lang yun.. nung nagload ako at na-feel ko na wala siyang load, niloadan ko na rin siya.. ano ba yan.. ano na nangyayari sa akin..
tapos.. ayan.. ito ako ngayon.. naghihintay ng text niya.. whoo..
ano ba 'tong ginagawa ko? hai.. la lang.. ewan ko kung bakit kailangan ko pa magshare ng stupidity ko today.. wag gayahin ah.. antok na ako.. sana masaya naman bukas..
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amazing.. tama ah.. hehe.. sinagutan ko 'tong mga 'to habang ka-chat groupmate ko sa math.. pahirap kasi yung math eh.. hehe.. anyways, try niyo basahin 'tong mga 'to.. nakakatuwa for me.. ewan ko sa inyo.. hehe..
| You Are a Brownie Cheesecake |
A little chunky and a little gooey, you pretty much run on sugar!
You take hedonism to the extreme.. And people love you for it. |
| You Are a Light Pink Rose |
You represent sweetness and grace.
Your vibe: Kind and gentle
Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend |
| You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One! |
You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single.
You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone.
However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating.
Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around. |
| You Are a Good Friend Because You're Fun |
You are energetic, amusing, and always up for a good time.
Optimistic and genuinely happy, you help people see the sunny side of life.
And you're always up for a party... no matter how big or small.
You're usually the first one to celebrate a friend's success.
Anyone who's interesting or fun is welcome in you circle of friends.
You're not the type of person to exclude or make fun of someone who's a little different.
Your friends need you most when: They're down or depressed
You really can't be friends with: Anyone who's stuck up or chronically unhappy
Your friendship quote: "It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them." |
| Your Kiss is Pink |
For you, kissing is pure happiness... simple as that.
You definitely get a little blissed out from kissing, even if you're a bit shy about it.
You won't kiss just anyone. Your kisses are special!
Young at heart, you still get very excited the first time you kiss someone.
Kissing Type: Generous
People See Your Kisses as: Sweet
You Kiss Best With: A Black Kisser
Stay away from: An Orange Kisser |
| In 1990 (the year you were born) |
George H.W. Bush is president of the US
Operation Desert Shield forces leave for Saudi Arabia to defend them following the invasion of Kuwait
Congress passes Americans with Disabilities Act
Nelson Mandela is released from a South African prison
East and West Germany are reunified
The first McDonald's opens in Moscow, Russia
Super Mario Brothers 3 is released on the Nintendo Entertainment System console, selling over 6 million copies
The Space Shuttle Discovery places the Hubble Space Telescope into orbit
Windows 3.0 is released by Microsoft
Cincinnati Reds win the World Series
San Francisco 49ers win Superbowl XXIV
Edmonton Oilers win the Stanley Cup
Home Alone is the top grossing film
Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton is published
"Vision of Love" by Mariah Carey spends the most time at the top of the US charts
Chris Farley and Adam Sandler join Saturday Night Live |
| You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It |
You're the type most likely to find love... surprised?
You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about.
And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone.
Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect! |
| You Are A Blue Girl |
Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart. |
| You Should Rule Venus |
Venus is a mysterious, stormy planet - shrouded in a thick layer of clouds.
You are perfect to rule Venus, because you are quite emotional and volatile yourself.
Your emotions change as rapidly as the weather on Venus, and both you and the planet are incomprehensible to others.
While you are not a logical thinker, you are quite empathetic.
You can care for and understand others, but your emotions swirl too quickly to truly understand yourself. |
| What Your Favorite Color Purple Says About You: |
Intuitive --- Seeking --- Creative
Kind --- Self-Sacrificing --- Growth Oriented
Strong --- Very Wise --- Rare |
| Your Depression Level: 56% |
You seem to have mild depression.
A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment.
If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help. |
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i really believe in karma now..
hehe.. sobra.. dati dalawa na yung mga nangyari sa'kin na sobrang nagpa-feel sa akin na totoo ang karma.. tapos kanina nadagdagan pa.. yung drama ko pala last week, karma siguro yun.. last year pala yung isa kong friend nakakafeel ng ganun sa group namin pero di ko rin napansin.. kaya bumabalik na siguro sa akin.. hehe.. ang sad pero at least, matatakot na siguro ako gumawa ng bad ngayon.. hehe.. parang yung wallet kong nawala nung thursday.. alam kong kung good person ang nakakuha nun, babalik yun sa'kin.. at kung hindi, kakarmahin siya.. hai.. good luck naman.. sabi dun sa lost and found sa as, wala daw nag-surrender ng nawawalang wallet.. nakita niyo ba? ibalik niyo na please.. grabe first time ko mawalan ng wallet.. buti walang pics dun.. mga 1x1" ko lang.. hehe.. kaya lang andun credit card ko, gentxt at laking national.. waahh.. di na daw ako ikukuha ng credit card.. tsaka yung pooh na cards na galing sa boxes ng cereals andun din.. waahh.. sayang.. ok lang yung money eh.. buti na lang.. 100 lang naman yun.. kaya lang sayang rin.. pambili ko na dapat yun ng mrt card eh.. hehe.. buti hiniwalay ko na yung money ko..
i'm practicing how to be independent na pala.. last, last wednesday yung math17 first test ko.. bad start, lumakad lang ako papuntang math.. malay ko bang walang jeep eh nun lang ako pumunta sa up ng wednesday.. hehe.. super aga pa nun.. 7-9 ba naman yung test.. oh well.. alam ko namang babagsak ako[at bagsak nga].. pero di yun ang kwento.. hehe.. after nung test ko pumunta ako sa gym para bumili ng tickets namin ni miguel para sa pep rally.. tapos pumunta akong glorietta.. binili ko yung gift namin ng mga kapatid ko kay mommy.. ang tagal ko pa pumili kasi wala nang size karamihan nung cute designs.. ayun.. tapos naglunch ako mag-isa.. at bumalik sa up mag-isa.. tapos dun ko na sila mineet before pep rally.. ang saya-saya, dumating si sheena at chrissy.. ang galing, kinongratulate[ang panget ng spelling, ganyan ba?] ako ni tim kasi daw marunong na ako mag-isa.. hehe.. well, that's a start.. kaya ko 'to.. hehe.. mag-isa na nga ako umuuwi eh.. buhay pa naman ako.. pero busy lang kasi last week.. siguro this week kasabay ko na ulit si neil at jose..
di pa siya nagtetext.. buhay pa naman ako.. kaninang lunchtime pa rin yung huli kong text sa kanya kasi tipid mode.. hehe.. ok naman pala eh.. sana lagi akong busy.. para kung may ginagawa ako, hindi ko napapansin na di siya nagpaparamdam.. hehe..
i miss lao.. and kamille.. and kier.. and diana.. and sally.. and arvi.. and sot.. and super friend karen.. and janine weakling.. and the bearz.. and newton people.. and all my friends in masci.. la lang.. naalala ko lang.. yung mga nsa upd, lagi ko pa naman nakikita eh.. hehe.. sana nagpaparamdam sila.. lalo na yung batang maitim na kulot ang buhok na mukhang ita na pinangalanang laurence.. hehe.. joke lang.. miss lang kita.. ;p
ayun.. buhay pa ako.. whoo.. hehe.. sana lang di ako na-immune nung high school pag bumabagsak ako sa math.. ayan tuloy.. ngayon di rin ako affected masyado.. pano na lang yung scholarship ko.. haru.. papatayin ako ng mommy ko..
paramdam kayo people!! tag!! hehe..
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007;
i was supposed to post this yesterday when we ran out of internet load..
well.. here goes.. drama of the week.. [sally, naalala kita rito.. feel ko kasi solohin 'tong mga drama ko eh.. feeling ko talaga wala akong masabihan.. naiintindihan na kita ngayon.. ='( ]
1. friendship factor.. op-ness ang drama ko.. parang, ok, kayo naman nagkakaintindihan eh.. so parang sige kayo na lang.. kayo na lang magsama lagi.. op lang naman ako pag kasama ko kayo.. tsaka may kasama pa kayong isa pero di kami masyadong close.. sino naman kaya yung dalawang taong 'to? kalay people sila.. at malamang obvious na.. ayoko nga malaman nila 'to eh.. kasi parang ang selfish ko.. pero sa totoo lang, ang tagal ko nang nafifeel na op ako pag kasama silang dalawa.. wala nang sinabi kundi tungkol sa kalay.. feeling ko tuloy minsan intentional para ma-op ako.. pero hindi naman siguro.. pero ganun yung feeling.. parang ang inconsiderate.. sila na nga madalas magkasama, pag kasama ako yun pa rin usapan.. hai.. iiwasan ko sila ngayon.. pero ayokong malaman nila na may something.. nakahihiya naman sa kanila.. ako na nga lagi yung singit eh.. basta.. hahayaan ko na muna sila.. baka sakaling mamiss nila ako.. pero asa pa.. wala naman ako sa kalay eh.. pano naman nila ako mamimiss?
2. 'yang unang drama ay medyo connected sa dramang 'to.. isa pang taga-kalay.. tanggap ko na nga eh.. kaya lang hindi ko expected na ganun pero sa totoo lang, ok na.. marami lang siguro talagang ginagawa this week kaya ganun.. hindi ko lang talaga siya maintindihan minsan.. or siguro maarte lang nga ako.. hai..
3. 'yung math 17 ko.. mamamatay na ako.. may test pa ako bukas sa lagay na 'to ah.. pero inuuna ko pa 'to.. ang sad.. kailangan ko pa naman magsuper effort sa lahat ng subjects ko, lalo na 'to kasi may scholarship ako.. waahh.. paano na 'to.. paano ako magcoconcentrate eh ang dami kong iniisip?
4. sasabog na talaga ako kasi feeling ko wala akong masabihan.. feeling ko walang makaiintindi sa akin.. at parang ang daming dapat gawin kaya next time na ako magdadrama talaga..
'yung #1 yung super problem ko ngayon.. medyo ok na kasi 'yung #2 tapos 'yung #3 hindi ko alam.. basta major 'yung #1.. naiinis ako sa kanila pero bad yata na mainis.. kaya hindi dapat.. napaniginipan ko pa pala sila nung isang gabi.. pero ayoko na ikwento dito.. sige.. next time na lang.. try ko po muna mag-aral.. pagdasal niyo ako..
the end.. masaklap kapalaran ng math 17 test ko.. kaya ipagdasal niyo talaga ako ha? ang gulo ng buhay ko right now.. salamat..
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