yesterday, i felt like going back to school again.. or was it just because my brother was doing the stuff he needed for school and i wasn't? haha.. i even helped him cover his notebooks with plastic and colored paper.. haha.. good ate.. it felt slightly different though, because he had different teachers.. not the same ones i had[duh].. so there.. and my sister's classes start today.. home alone.. ='( [well not really, our yaya came today but it felt weird not having my siblings around anymore..]

in just a few days.. my vacation would be over too.. whoo.. i'm not yet ready!! haha.. i guess it's just because i'm not exactly someone who's very open to change.. i mean.. there are a lot of things that i don't want to change.. like the people i'll be with, for example.. but that isn't possible.. haayy.. i'll be meeting new people.. new people to deal with and understand and all.. whoo..

so that's one thing that has been bothering me lately.. and there are still other things..

i'm so bad.. it's like i'm preventing them from being friends.. i don't know why but i really don't want them to be friends.. i feel that she's going to pull him away from me.. haha... paranoid.. but isn't when you have a super close friend, you wouldn't want him to be friends with someone you don't like..? it's not that i don't like her.. i don't know.. there's something.. i really don't know!! hehe.. bottom line is.. i don't want her to be your friend..

i'm not sad.. just a bit.. hehe.. i'm confused.. again.. why? i don't know.. am i really that bad? i can feel that things will never be the same again.. it's been so long already.. or at least that's how i feel.. it may just be because it's summer and i don't have anything to do so i feel that way.. that a lot of time has passed already.. haayy..

*Underneath this smile

My world is slowly caving in

All the whileI'm hanging on

Cause that is all I know

Could you be the one to save me

from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole

I've been hiding out for miles

Underneath this smile*

one more thing.. i have to go home early everyday.. because somebody has to be here when my sister arrives from school.. how tragic.. i may not have time to see him before i go home.. whoo..

kaya ko 'to!! aja!! ;p

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